day 0

 you

this is the last day we have together.
the last day before you are going to leave.
14 days without you and I decided to document them.

when I read through our messages I realize why I fell in love with you so quickly.
I have to admit it hasn't been easy recently.
but I love you. and my love still grows every single day.

when we started to text everything seemed to be perfect.
you were exactly like me, you thought about the same things and we texted non stop.
you made me feel better than anyone before. every single day. better and better.

now there happened to be some changes.
things got complicated.
I knew you were broken. and now I realized how much.
I realized that it won't be easy to make you happy.
I realized it will be exhausting sometimes. it will make me cry. and it'll hurt. a lot.

and still. I LOVE YOU.
I still know this thing between you and me is real.
I still know you are the one who makes everything better.
I still know you are my light in the darkness.
and this is something incredibly strong.
you light up others' lives even though you can't always find the light in your own life.

you deserve pure happiness. this is what I want for you.
I've never wanted anything so much.
I know you are broken. I know you are hurt. I know you hate this world because of the dogs in here.
but I also know you are humble. you can lose yourself in nature.
I know you are protective. you'd do anything for your family.
I know you feel deep emotions. I know you feel deep love.
for your mom and dad. for your lil S. for your brother and his family.

and what I also know is that you are loved. you are loved by so many people out there.
God has challenged you in life. a lot. it hasn't been easy and it'll probably never be.
but you can do it.
God has made you a loving son who makes his parents proud every day.
God has made you an awesome brother and friend.
God has made you an adorable uncle who makes his niece and nephew unbelievably happy.

you can't see all the love you are spreading but I can tell you it's incredible.
God will make you a perfect boyfriend.
God will make you a loyal husband.
God will make you a proud daddy.
I can't wait to go this way together with you.